Happy September....

I have been working on a big collection of self-injury related books, websites, chat rooms, message boards, etc... now I have finished it so... I would really appreciate it if you went to it and got other people to go to it... please %%diary-si-directory%% is the address. I think it is a good idea and, besides, if you SI and don't go to it I will cut your precious bits off... jokes, but still...

I think that my bottom knuckle on my middle finger on my left hand is broken coz it had been like 7 days since I last punched a door with it and it still hurts but there isn't a decent bruise anymore. It hurts like a sore thing.

I ams o fucking sick of cutting, it is just boring. Now-a-days it bleeds too much and doesn't hurt enough.

I have the sudden urge to get completly wasted right now, pity my liver is as it is. Though I had icecream (low fat) that had loads of sugar in it and i just went on a high insteed of feeling sick. Yay for me. I go on highs so damn easily. Often without anything. Just randomly. Weeeeeee. Though I'm not on a high right now, I am feeling dizzy on account of the fact that it's 4:15 and I have only had a smoothy. So go get some food, I hear you say... flag. I'm not hungry, just dizzy. If that makes sense. Bah. Humbug.

Gah. Is Will trying to make me feel worthless? I hope he isn't, but I know he's suceeding. :(. We are talking about this chick who he really likes and I said "just WHEN you are with her, dont use the l-word unless you think you mean it coz you might as well be ripping out a chick's heart" (coz that's what he did to me) and now he's saying about, yeah, but he'd mean it if he said it to her. Guess I am jealous, coz I thought I meant it when I said it to him. Well, I am trying to change the subject at least slightly coz, for some bizarre reason, it hurts.

*SIGH*

my 'best friend' made me delete what i had written here coz she... well she just did... i ahet deleting things form a diary. it is nnot right. if she wasn't my best friend i would've given her a look and said 'fuck off'

I keep seeing things today. Gotta hate that. Like I'll see something run past the window or whatever, just out of the corner of my eye

I am over writing for today