Ok, well today I woke up feeling really angry and with a headache so I stayed home. If I'd gone to school I'd prolly be suspended by now, enough said.

I've kinda given up on a lot of stuff. Like all that stuff with Bevan. So, basiclly, I told Cam he should ditch me like Bevan and Kathryn want him to because this way he'll only lose one friend, not two.

For some reason I just gave Will a drug lecture... I'm not even anti drugs! But, hey, I wouldn't be me if I wasn't a hypocrite.

I don't wanna go to school again, I just can't be stuffed. But I will, I should.

I just don't wanna see Bevan, Kathryn, Cam, Will, Alex, Crina, Laura, most of the midgits, Jared, Gustav, Sarah etc etc etc... and I don't mean to offend anyone by any of that. I just don't wanna see anyone who hates me at the moment and I don't wanna see anyone who doesn't. I just can't deal with anything. i am completly overwhelmed with every little thing in my life. And nothing is stopping them being overwhelming. We can forget cutting right now. What's my problem?!?

I am crumbling and all I need to hear is a few words from one of a few people...

and they know who they are and what they can say, they just won't... it's not even that big of a deal for them to say it. All I wanna hear is anything other than "I hate you" or "it can't happen"... anything else from them... anything...