Mmmmmm... 4 days without updating. I've been busy, not reaklly a good excuse though.

We got our new computer on Sunday, it's a Compaq Presario with XP, I like it.

Last night I went and sae a play at school with a bunch of people I knew. It was called Terrence (sp???). It was so so good! Like some of it was quite funny but then some of it was really sad. Pretty much all of the cast was really good, though Will McT kept staring at the audience (he made up for it, though, by being really fucking scary when him and Harry were beating up Terrence), Sena spoke so fats you couldn't understand her and other than that the acting was great. Leon played Terrence and he did it so so well and who else was good? Ummm... oh! that's right, Clare Hancock (hate!!!) was suprisingly good ocne she stopped laughing with the audience.

Ok. anyone who doesn't know those people in real life was prolly just really confused, sorry.

Other stuff... yesterday in science Jovan called me a slut and then Jeffery went over to him and whispered something in his ear and they both looked over at me. Jeffery goes to Jovan "don't tell her what I said" and Jovan said "nah, I'll tell her anyway" so I asked what Jeffery said and Jovan said "he said 'it's funny coz it's true'". So I hit Jeffery. Lots. I gave him a dead arm and a dead leg and then I put my wallet (where I keep a blade) in my bag and excused myself from class. I then went down to the girls toilets, shut myself in a cubicle and cut. I cut my left wrist 6 times and my left hand twice. Then I went back to class and apperently I looked really out of it (probably because I was) and I hit Jeffery a couple more times and told him that if he ever said anythign like that again then I'd hurt him real bad.

I dunno why I reacted so badly to all of that. I think it is most probably because I have spent so long convincing myself that I'm not slutty that to hear someone else say it made no sense. Until I thought about it. then it was kinda like fuck, I thought I was slutty for a while there and now they think it,... what if it is true? hell, it must be true. So that threw me a bit.

Oh well, fuck changing. I am me and I'd like to keep it that way thank you very much.

*Hum*

I now have AIM instant messenger as well. My username is xXxhopelingxXx so feel free to add me.

What else? Oh, you know the burns that I did a while ago? They now look really gross. They're so many colours: yellow, red, pink, white, orange, green (I don't think those last 2 can possibly be a good sign), brown and various other shades in between. Icky.

Well, I'm off now,

Love you all,

Lauren