Sorry about that entry I wrote earlier. I haven't had the best day so I dealt with it as best I could. With burning. I didn't cut, but I did burn... a lot. 10 smallish burns (small being between 0.5 and 2 squared cm). The thing that set me off is really something stupid that I should get over. It actually isn't a big deal, and it just went with a lack of sleep, the fact that my period is late, BUS getting pissy and me and about 200 other things. Feeling kinda stupid for the fact that I now have 10 things on my arm that are going to get infected and that I am going to have to take constant care of for like the next 2 months (literally, coz burns take forever to heal, I still have a big scar that gets the ocassional blister from a burn I did about 4 months ago). I am falling into old habits, badly. I am SI'ing too much and I am attacking people (physically and emotionally) and just generally not being good.

I am sorry to everyone that I love, I realize that I am impossible at the moment; please bear with me, I need you all. Even if it doesn't seem like it.

Especially you (you know who you are), I love you. Even if/ when I get angry at you, I still love you *so much* and I still need you.

Lauren